1 John 3:1
"See how great a love the Father has bestowed upon us, that we should be called children of God; and such we are. For this reason the world does not know us, because it did not know "
I have been praying a lot lately about the love of God. I have come to the realization that I do not know what his love is anymore .... that I never really knew what his love is.
Six years ago my best friend (and first boyfriend) tell me that he loved me. He taught me what t meant to love another, and helped me to grow in God's love. Then we broke it off and I broke down. I dated other guys and tried to move on, but I did not know what true love was because the guy I loved broke me into a million pieces.
This past Saturday night, I participated in a worship session down on the "Field of Dreams" (a gorgeous field at the base of campus). As I was sitting there with my friends, worshiping God and his beauty, I had an epiphany that I truly do not know what it means to love another in the way that God loves me. I have grown up learning that God's love was him sending Jesus to die for us, that He could take all of my sins away and still love me when I mess up or turn away, that He is always there whenever I need him.
I realized that I need to spend a majority of my time with God and learn what it truly means to love and be loved by God. This summer, I am staying on campus this summer to work. I am going to use this time that I have now, mainly this summer and the rest of my life wanting to know God more and admiring this beautiful world of His, and His beauty in me. My goal/plan right now (this might change) is to take time at least 4 days/week to go and lay and stare in awe of God's perfection and beauty in the Field of Dreams (I worship everyday but this time that I am putting aside will be to sit and be still as my Father says to be).
I am planning on blogging about what God is teaching me and Bible verses that really speak to me that day. There will be things that I will not be posting because they may be really personal to me.
This blog is about my personal relationship with my Savior, if my readers post any harsh condescending comments, I will delete them.
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